Confused

I realise it has been almost two weeks since I have blogged and a lot of things have happened; good and bad.
I have these thoughts in my mind that have been escalating for months and are slowly coming to the surface like that of a volcano.
Everybody thinks it may be dormant, but sometimes it is just inactive.
I'm that volcano.
Nobody pays that close of attention to me, granted I hide my true feelings well, at least I try to.
You think I'm dormant, never to errupt, but as the days go by, I'm coming closer to bursting, letting hot, raw emotions fly in all directions.
I know these thoughts are probably unncessary, pathetic and false but I cannot shake them.
I haven't really told anybody these feelings.
Never found the appropriate time, place, friend or even level of alcohol consumption.
I realise I have amazing friends to turn to, but I feel intimdated to ask anyone if they can have a deep chat with me.
I'm one of those people who truly listen, but don't seem to have an intensely strong bond with someone whom they share everything with .
I need to open up willingly before time runs out and I crack.
Everything is building up, my thoughts, the issue with a friend a month ago, exams, assignments etc.
I want to ask someone to listen for a couple hours someplace quiet.
Please let me open up.
I'm so confused. I try to mask my thoughts behind other, more happier and lighter ones. But that doesn't do the trick for long.

I remember I began to tell the two people I fully trusted my thoughts.
One never replied back and the other did but not deep enough.

I know that in time my thoughts will change, but I don't see that in the near future.

Just ... please?