Life decisions

When forced to spend time alone with no one but your cat as comfort, you are stuck inside your head, forced to think unless you talk to yourself out loud or the aforementioned cat.
The past day and a half I have found myself in solitude as soon as I step through the front door each time.
I enter my own personal bubble, studying sleeping and facebooking.
But tonight I felt different.

I do not like cooking for only myself, thus my dinner was a sandwich tonight :)
I rather cook for others, to please others.
That's all I seem to do sometimes; please others.
Cooking, in my perspective, is a creative way to please someone. I need another
word for please my vocabulary is terrible.
My mind comes up with some of the most spontaneous thoughts that they are still
known to surprise even me.

Will I be living on my own one day? Or will it be with friends or eventually a family?
No doubt there will be one time in my life where I will live alone,
possibly with a cat. Who knows.
The past two days I hav gotten a taste of that aloneness (love my vocab?)

and of course the thoughts of living alone brought me to the future and of what I will do after high school.
So I have spend the last half an hour on the UOW website after they sent me a letter in the mail.

I have no idea. This is quite the tough decision.
I know that I would like to defer for a year or so before I enter the tertiary schooling system to become
a teacher.
I'm afraid of the future.

Will I be able to afford uni even? Which is probably why I'm defering, to save money and relax from 13
consecutive years of schooling.

Where will I go? Should I stay on the south coast?
Most People cannot wait until they leave this place and hardly look back.
Sometimes I feel that way too but I've had the best years of my life down here,
at scho even.

My thoughts are centred around the when's, what's, where's and why's.

On another note, exams are in a few days and I'm prepared for all of my
subjects but math and English, which are my worse. Freaking terrible I know.
The stress is only just beginning to kick in.
Sometimes I think that there must be something wrong with me for not
thinking about this sooner. To prioritize my subjects from hardest to easiest.
I have problems with prioritizing and organising school work most time.

On another note I am excited for my dad to get home :) he will come with procrastination
devises!! All three available seasons of Skins :):)

and my sister will be arriving tomorrow lunch time for the weekend... Again. Soon
she will move back down, I can see it coming.
I have to meet her at the bus stop, which means no school for me tomorrow. Studying math!

The future is never set in stone.